First of all, if you liked my new blogskin, thanks. :) I love to keep things simple now. :) If you didn't, I am still finding for the right one. I find this new blogskin unsatisfying because the titles of the posts disappear, there is a constant font that I hate( I use Arial only. Go figure. ) and the big small alphabets thing. Because I am fussy like that, yo. ;) Scratch that. I am just lusting for perfection.

Second of all, friends, I am sorry for being cooo cooo in the head about Judgement's Day. Facts or fictions, I still believe in Jesus.

Third of all, I miss Gaius. :( I was on the phone with him.

Me.: Knock knock.
Gaius.: Yes?
Me.: You supposed to go " Who is there? ".
Gaius.: Who is there?
Me.: You.
Gaius.: Haha.
Me.: x Raising eyebrow. x Do you even know what the joke is about?
Gaius.: I don't know.
Me.: Then, why did you laugh?
Gaius.: I don't know.
Me.: You are going get. Ahhh. Fuck it. You supposed to go " You who? ".
Gaius.: " You who? ".
Me.: I am happy too.
Gaius.: Haha.
Me.: Do you even know what the joke is about?
Gaius.: I don't know.
Me.: Then, why did you laugh? Ahhh. Fuck it. You who, yooohooo. Happy yooohooo. Get it?
Gaius.: Oh. Haha.
Me.: Here is another one. Knock knock.
Gaius.: You who?
Me.: x I was an inch to run to Subang Jaya to kick his ass. x You are supposed to go " Who is there? ".
Gaius.: Oh. Who is there?
Me.: Nobody.
Gaius.: Nobody who?
x Crickets' sounds. x
Gaius.: Nobody who?
x Crickets' sounds. x
Gaius.: Nobody who?
Me.: There is no one here.

Gaius sucks at Knock Knock jokes. =.=






I got dolled up earlier because Gaius told me he would be coming at 11 a. m., but it turned out he arrived at 12 something p. m. because of his cousins. O.O So I camposed. :D




I got dolled up earlier because Gaius told me he is coming at 4 or 5 p. m. so that I could spend more time with him instead of getting dolled up, but it turned out he is coming at 7.3o p. m. because daddy finishes work at 7 p. m.. So I camposed. :D




During assembly, Joanne, Sarah and I were talking.

Sarah.: x Telling a joke. x
x Crickets' sounds. x
Joanne.: x In a sarcastic tone. x Ohwooow. It is so funny that I forgot to tickle myself.
Me.: x In a sarcastic tone. x What? Do you want a cookie or a " Good job. " sign board?

x Inhale. x Ahhh. Love's farts smell good. :D

After school, Joanne, Sarah, Suzanne and I stayed back. I like Suzanne. :) I don't know why, but I don't like people who are younger than me except Shivani. So Suzanne, if you are reading this, worship me. ;) Haha. But I have doubt she is reading this because she is a loser. :D Haha. Anyway, after that, Uncle Guna sent me home.

Mom asked me to hit the shower earlier since I am a slowpoke. x Eyes rolling. x Right. So since I was all dolled up and had one hour to dinner in Cowboy to celebrate Alvin's graduation, I camposed. :D

I am aware I look fugly here, but I can touch my nose. :D Oh, and do I look like Squirdward from " SpongeBobSquarePants "? =.= Why do I find everyone looks like him? =.=


After that, Bernard, mom and I left for Cowboy and met up with granddad, Aunt Theressa, Uncle Redface and his family and Uncle Hong and his family. After that, we were back home.


Before I continue updating my blog, I would love to wish you Happy Earth Day. :D
This is how earth looks like now. " Happy Earth Day ". There a smiley sun, a couple and a friendly pig. :D

The continuation of the previous picture. There are two clouds and a tree.

This is how earth looks like in the future if you didn't do what I have written in the second paragraph. There are a sad sun, a cloud crying, a leafless tree and a mutant pig.

The continuation of the previous picture. " Happy Judgement's Day ". There are a mutant pig and a couple. It is trying to eat them. I don't know why, but I love the idea of the mutant pig. :D

Sarah's green hearts.

Kadafi. :D As you know I left Kadafi The Teddy Bear in China. So I decided to take his soul and transfer it to this exotic looking doll. :D Oh, and fuck you to that petite bitch who called Kadafi fugly who is also known as Zizi. :D Haha.

I am sorry for the small amount of pictures. Well, I looked fugly in my Baju Kurung. =.= Haha. Anyway, after that, we marched ourselves to our bus and we were on our way to school. After that, Safinas and Aunt Safinas'smom sent Nisha, Sumathi and I home.

Close family, family friends and I celebrated mom's birthday at the restaurant. Uncle Bobby brought his sister's car or should I say, mom's dream car, Alphard. So we checked out the car. It was a trip to Pink Heaven. :D The car has a camera on the back so that the driver could see what's at the back, automatic doors and cool lightings on sides and on the inside. Parents might be buying that car. I find parents miles away from cutting off that list off their wish list since we are not that rich. I mean. It is a RM 2oo, ooo car we are talking about. O.O Even if they did, it is a bad news for me because I have to inherit their Honda Stream. I mean. There is nothing wrong with it, but I hate big cars. They are annoying when it comes to parking. Okay. Forget what you read. As long as I have a car, then it would be fine with me. :)

Inside the Alphard. :)


After that, mom and I sent Aunt Janet, Poh Yee and her friend home. Since mom and I were alone in the car, I took the chance to bond with her.

Me.: Do you like Gaius?
Mom.: Why are you asking foolish questions?
x Crickets' sounds. x
Mom.: The reason why I didn't invite his family and him is because it was a small gathering. Don't think too much.
x Crickets' sounds. x
Mom.: Maybe if dad was free next Wednesday, then we could go for a dinner.
Me.: It is okay.
Mom.: I am serious.
Me.: It is okay.
Mom.: If you insist.
Me.: It is okay.

I am upset with the fact that we didn't bond and I was being ignorant. Ahhh. Fuck it. This is not the first time.


Gaius introduced a song to me. So I Youtubed. It is sentimental. As I scrolled down to the comment column, there was a Youtuber wrote " I don't know how he could sing to this song after what happened to his life. " which led me to a curiosity. So I continued reading the comment column fulled of Youtubers giving out sources. Truth to be told, this song has its own story underneath those meaningful lyrics. A legend dedicated it to his 4 years old son, Connor who passed away in 1991 due to a shocking accident. Okay. I read 2 different stories, but I don't know which is fact and which is fiction.

I hope this is fact. He was in a concert and Connor was in his apartment with his babysitter. The babysitter forgot to close the window. So Connor with his naive mind, unable to detect what's right and what's wrong, fell off the window. Oh, did I mention it was 53 floor? Sad, but true.

I hope this is fiction. He was in a concert and Connor was in his apartment with his mom. Before he and his mom made his way into their apartment, a security guard told his mom to remember to close the window. They reached their home sweet apartment. His mom was being ignorant, forgot to close the window. I assume you have acknowledged what happened next.

After acknowledged the truth, I broke down for 3 hours. O.O I guess I am a sucker when it comes to death. Oh, and Connor Clapton, rest in peace.

P. S.: My favourite songs at this moment are " The Way I Love You " by Ashanti, " American Boy " by Kanye West feat Estelle and of course, " Tears In Heaven " by Eric Clapton, the song I have been crying to for 3 hours and the song you are listening to now.


Sarah and I stayed back in school for Elitra and Netball. Elitra's meeting was fun. Miss Emelia and Mrs. Kamaliswairi told us Elitra is going to have a camp in Kuala Selangor where we could see fire flyers. :D I have been there before. It was beautiful. :) After that, it was Netball's meeting. Liyana was teaching about the concept which led to boredom. So we left for Elitra's drama's meeting. I am starting to love Elitra's meetings. :)


Parents and I were discussing about what car they are going to buy for me next year. They showed me pictures of Puyo on a catalogue. At first, I wasn't impressed, but the more I looked at, the more I fell in love with it. :D The best part is it is friendly environmental.( What? The catalogue was interesting. :) That shows how much I love Puyo. :) ) As I scrolled down, I was drowning in disappointment because it is RM 1oo, ooo. O.O What the fuck? I should have knew it. I mean. It is beautiful and everyone knows it would cost a fortune. :/ What was I thinking? Ohwait. What were parents thinking? O.O


Mr. CaptureMyMemories hit back home. :)

Only loves know what we were doing. :D

Mine. :)

Joanne's.

Bernard's.

I am sorry for being a poserpot, but I haven't seen or touched Mr. CaptureMyMemories for 2 weeks. O.O Joanne, that answers your question.

If you didn't have faith in it, then, why bother holding on to it?

I wish I could tell you why.


Thanks to SarahBond for teaching me how to use PhotoScape. :) Since Mr. Camera is still with Adeline, I edited my old pictures. I am not a expert, but at least I tried my best. :P


I suck. O.O Never mind that. I have a habbit which is collecting artistic pictures from everywhere. My favourite is sunrises. :)

This is my wallpaper.

People who starve themselves to dead, go fuck yourself. :)




It is time to revise on one of Bahasa Melayu's idioms since SPM is near. My pick is " Lembu punya susu, sapi dapat name. " which means you have done something good, but someone else gets the praising.

It happened to me. O.O Do you know how pissed I was? I was so pissed that I grew a horn. x Showing middle finger. x

Mr. / Mrs. / Miss Anonymous gave 5 Gammanians an assignment on who influences us and divided us in groups. I was with Anonymous, Eka and Syaza. Anonymous insisted on writing about his / her favourite teacher who passed away and I insisted on writing about Mrs. Hanim, but it wasn't a problem because Mr. / Mrs. / Miss Anonymous didn't have a problem with it. I wrote it on a piece of manila card and all of us had to paste it on the walls. One day, Mrs. Hanim saw it and asked a dumbass who wrote it and he / she told her it is Anonymous, but some shouted my name, but she didn't hear because the class was noisy. So she was thanking Anonymous for it. O.O I forgave Anonymous because it was Mrs. Hanim who got the wrong person, but at least he / she could tell her the truth, but no. He / She didn't do anything, but smiled. O.O Okay. Fine. I forgive and forget.

Today, Mr. / Mrs. / Miss Anonymous told 5 Gammanians Anonymous's, Eka's, Syaza's and my essays have the same words, but Anonymous's is the best among 4 of us because he / she wrote Mrs. Hanim's name at the end of the essay instead of at the beginning. Pause. I don't know what's up with Anonymous because he / she wrote about his / her favourite teacher, yet he / she didn't tell Mr. / Mrs. / Miss Anonymous the truth, but smiled. O.O By now, you should have acknowledged the fact that I am the one who wrote Mrs. Hanim's name at the end of the essay instead of at the beginning. The worst part is Mr. / Mrs. / Miss Anonymous told Mrs. Hanim about how good Anonymous is for writing about her when he / she didn't. So Mrs. Hanim was showing her love for him / her. O.O I don't know whether he / she is deaf or dumb, but all I know is he / she is a thick faced motherfucker.

I assume you find this post unnecessary, but when it happens to you, you would know how I feel.


Daddy picked me up and we left for his place. Gaius was showing me his kindergarden's report card.

Gaius.: x Showing me his kindergarden's report card. x
Me.: OhmyGod. You looked like a young Shah Rukh Kan, but fairer. I wonder what happened now. x Cough. x Darker. x Cough. x
Mommy.: He didn't take his shower for years which explains his darkness now. Haha.
Me.: Haha.

That was a good one. :) After that, I was enthusiastic over Edward's webcam and started taking pictures of me. =.= Haha. It is not that I am lame, but I have been lusting for a webcam for years. I am going to get myself a webcam sooner or later. :P



After that, Gaius, Arvan and Ah Chiew sent me home.


Me.: Mom, can I go out tomorrow?
Mom.: Where are you going tomorrow?
Me.: To my friend's place.
Mom.: You should waste your chances to go out on Gaius. Not your friends. So the answer is a no.
Me.: Oh. Haha. It is Gaius's friend.
Mom.: Oh. Haha. Come back early.

Revolution much? I can sense that. :)


I am obsessed with 3 things.

First is. x Drum rolls. x Jump style. :D Go Youtube it.

Second is. x Drum rolls. x Shuffle. :D I am aware it is not the trend anymore,[ Because jump style is. OhmyGod. OhmyGod. OhmyGod. :D ] but I still love it. :)

Third is. x Drum rolls. x " Sephia " by Sheila On 7. :D One of my favourite songs by Sheila On 7. Try listen to "Berhenti Berharap " and " Melompat Lebih Tinggi ". :)

Calling Love! This Is. We must do this song. :P


OhmyGod. OhmyGod. OhmyGod. I saw my newborn nephew. :) He was born 2 days after my birthday, but today only I saw him. He melted my heart. x Tears of joy. x :') Unfortunately, I cannot take pictures of him because according to aunt, it is bad luck. Well, I will take pictures of him when he is 1 month old. :)


Thanks for giving me chance after chance, but it looks like I kept ruining it. Other than you, I don't think other people would give me this amount of chances you gave me. It is true what you told me. I should be thankful for having you. I mean. Look at my surroundings. I got whatever I want and whatever I don't want. Funny storyline. I kept telling how much I hate you, but the truth is I love you. When Judgement Day arrives, you are the one who I want to be with.

I am sorry.