I love Italian food. Because of that, I am making Gaius to learn how to cook Italian food. =) He said he will. =)


Sarah and I went to Suntex to straighten our hair.

Before.

After.

Everyone was happy about it. Especially Gaius. -_-

Me.: I straighten my hair.
Gaius.: Good.
Me.: What is that supposed to mean?
Gaius.: Nothing.
Me.: I know what it means. My curly hair sucks.
Gaius.: No, I don`t mean that. I love your curly hair.
Me.: Ohreally? Good. I curl my hair tomorrow.
Gaius.: Good.
x Few seconds later. x
Gaius.: I take my words back. I want your straight hair.

This is going to be the shortest, yet the most meaningful post in my blog.

I met Callen. Well, I know him in a church camp last year. We didn`t talk much that time, but he remembers my name. =)

It feels so good to be remembered.


Bernard, mom and I went to Sungei Wang for Bernard`s new handphone and lunch. I am a big fan of Sushi. So I was excited about lunch. =) Haha.

Look at the amount of Wasabi on my tounge. =) You just got punk`d. It is ice cream. =) Haha.

After that, we were shopping, but thanks to Bernard, I spent most of my time finding for Bernard`s missing clothes. You can`t blame him. Blame that thief. Bernard and I were cursing him so that he will rot and die in the Blackhole Hell. Hello. Those clothes are RM 1oo something. In the end, we gave up. After that, we were shopping again. Bernard bought clothes with porns on it and I bought a chain with Gaius and my names on it. =) Even though that woman did our name fuglyly, but it was all good. =)

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There are more hatred than love in my mind now.

I hate the past. I hate making decisions. I hate being ordered. I hate my huge head. I hate my tighs. I hate my hair. I hate liars. I hate people who break their promises. I hate people who put on a mask twentyfourseven. I hate men who cheat. I hate men who flirt when they have a wifey. I hate men who claim they are players when they are not. I hate women who think they are all that. I hate women who are cheap. I hate beautiful women.

I love alcohol. I love Shisha. I love the smell of the fresh air.

Fifteen over three. Hatred won. =)


I am speechless. I don`t want to brag about my life. Thanks to Mr. Honesty for driving the final nail to my coffin of my already miserable life. Not. To be honest, I don`t know what to do anymore. I am lost, confused and numb. How to get out from Bermuda Triangle? How to get things straight when you have a Paris Hilton`s brain? How to feel things when you have your hands, legs and everything? How to. Who cares? I don`t care.

Nowadays, people are so selfish that they forget what they live for. For others. Maybe I should be one of them. Try to look at the brightside. At least I won`t get hurt. Or maybe I should be the most selfish person in the world. The brightside is the chance of getting hurt is below zero percent. =) By that way, I will be the happiest person in the world who is hated by everyone. =) Good. Now, the problem is everyone, but why should I care for them when I am the most selfish person in the world? It makes sense. Or maybe I should commit suicide since everyone is selfish. I know commit suicide is for weakminded people, but why should I live for since people don`t live for others? I know you are wondering what the others are living for. Well, they are inspirations to the others to continue living. Maybe it is your significant other. Or maybe it is your child. Or maybe it is a stranger. Who knows?

A pathless life doesn`t bring you to anywhere. So why do you bother living one?


I never knew his words affect me. Fine. I know, but not this bad. Based on the previous post, I was correct. Honesty is the worst answer to everything.

When he talks to me, I want him to be honest with me. Fine. I don`t because no one wants honesty because it hurts, sucks and kills. Imagine you are selling honesty for one cent, do you think people will buy it? No, they won`t because everyone hates honesty. Within a second, you will be broke. So stop selling honesty to people. If you were still stubborn, people will be attacking you with a box of tomatoes. I will be one of them. =)

To be honest, I love honesty because people always lie to me, but now, I hate it because it created a hurricane inside me. And it sucks.

Sometimes, just sometimes, I wish you know when to be honest and when to lie to me. <3


I love strangers more than people I know because they don`t hurt me as bad as people I know do. People say honesty is the best answer to everything, but the truth is it creates more problems that it solves. No one loves truth because it hurts. Everyone has at least one secret that will break your heart, but it doesn`t mean you should hide it because no matter how hard you hide it, the truth will be revealed, but it is a good thing they thought of hiding it because they know it will hurt the people they love. It proves they are good people, but why do we have secrets at the first place when we are good people?

People lie to me so much that I don`t know what truth is and what false is. Both of these statements are tangled up in my head. So I will be sitting at the corner of this room, wondering when they will stop lying. <#3


Yesterday, I was talking to Gaius on the phone. And Shiron was there. So I was talking to him. And it was my first time talking to him. If you don`t know who Shiron is, you are an outdated person. =) Haha. Shiron is the cutest boy in the world who is Gaius`s cousin.[ That is why Gaius is the perfect hubby in the world. Duh. =) ] =) He beats my cutest cousin, Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolies` daughter and Tom Cruise and Kate Holmess` daughter. =) Anyway, back to the story, most of the time, I don`t know what he was talking about because he was speaking Tamil. -_- Though, I love it when he was confused. =) OhmyGod. I accidently said " Macha. " and he was blahblahblahing about it. -_- Haha.

I still remember the first time I saw him. It was twothousandfive. He was sleeping. -_- So I didn`t have the chance to talk to him. -_- Ohyeah. Gaius and I are planning to take care of him when we are old enough to do that. And if his parents allowed us to, that is, but Gaius asked for their permission already. And it is a thumbsup. =) So if you saw both of us holding a boy`s hands, he is Shiron. =)

Please don`t mind the background. It was Edward.




Mom sent me to Sarah`s place because she scared I won`t make it on time for tuition since she is going to many places. Though, Sarah and I didn`t go for Chemistry class because it sucks.


We were hanging out in Wajib. And Wajib`s owner was starring at me because I was taking pictures. Well, I was the only one who was taking pictures. -_- Haha.


After that, we went to Mudun`s field.


After that, we went to Wangsa Cheras`s field. After that, we were walking around Wangsa Cheras three times. -_- After that, we went back to Wangsa Cheras`s field. Some Indian men were being such a pain in the ass. -_- They called me ChinaDoll. -_- I don`t want to be a ChinaDoll. I want to be Gaius`s Doll. =) Haha. After that, we went to tuition for Physics class. Well, thank Jesus we didn`t get caught. =)

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Look at my toenails. I drew hearts on it. =) One is for Gaius and another one is for me. =)

x Indian songs are playing. x

x It is still playing. x

x It is still playing. x

In case you don`t know, I was jumping. I know I should jump higher, but camera was out of battery. -_-


Let`s get honest.

Do you believe in something that you know it is false? Well, I do. I believe grandmom who past away three years ago will visit me. As you know, resurrection doesn`t exist, but I am still holding on to my faith. Believe it or not, I dreamt about grandmom. The first thing I did was hugging her, but next thing I know, I woke up. -_- It was sad because it happened too fast, but at least I saw her. =)

The thing is it is not about I dreamt about grandmom, but it is how I hold on to my faith even though I know it is impossible for a decease to wake up from her coffin, walk from Nirvana to Cheras and visit me, but somehow, there is always another way to achieve something impossible.

No matter how foolish your faith sounds, holding on to it is not a sin. <3


Solving problems is something I suck at.

Seriously, have you ever had a huge urge to shoot yourself in the head for uncountabletothepowerofuncountable times? It sucks when that happens. No matter how hard I try to solve my problems, nothing works. Unfunctioning solver machine, I say.

I used to get over things easily. Well, I always give myself an excuse to forget and forgive. When Bernard and I were small, we used to steal Andrew`s money for charity because he was mean to us. Now, Andrew owes me money, but I didn`t ask him for it because of what I did to him when I was small, but now, I realised excuses are lies. And I can`t use them to forget and forgive because they are not up to the standard where I can accept myself and the others. It is not that my expectations are high, but whose doesn`t?


Yesterday, I cut my fringe. And it looks fugly. -_- Thanks a lot to the hairstylist. Not.


Today, everyone called me " Superwoman " because of my fringe. -_- Well, I like my new nickname because I was a Supergirl. =) Haha.


Sarah said I am a hottempered person. To be honest, I am not. I am just a defensive, revengeful and can`tcontrolheranger person. I got hurt in the past. And that made me who I am now.

The day before yesterday, Ravi punched Joanne`s shoulder. So yesterday, I screamt at him. After that, a Form Three boy screamt at Joanne. I wanted to scream at him, but Mrs. Hasmah was there. -_- So today, I went to his class. And I screamt at him, but in the end, we were laughing. After that, Prabu threw a chewy gum to Joanne. So I taught Joanne to threw an ice to him. And she did. -_- Haha.

I know I am being such a dramatic queen, but I can`t help it, but standing up for Joanne. Like I said, I got hurt in the past. So that is why I don`t want Joanne to be one of the victims who got hurt in the past.


Before this, I didn`t know teachers are gossipers too, but now that I know they are, I lost respects for them. Just because BFFs and I did our hair doesn`t mean we are bad students, just because we late for class doesn`t mean we are lazy students[ Hello. Saktia is in Four Alpha. ] and just because we dress like adults doesn`t mean we are bitches. It is twothousandseven. What can you expect?


True friends are people who help us when we are in trouble. Even when we are wrong. They don`t run away. They don`t help us because we ask them to, but they want to.


OhmyGod. I saw a meteor, but I didn`t make a wish on it because it happened too fast, but so what if I did? It won`t make any differences.