and my confession is, i hate that place because of the fucked up people. i am not being judgemental. some people from there itself told me the same thing. and i am going there because of this certain person, the only person I like from that place.






okay. this is very, very random. was trying some make ups which explains why one eye with purple eye shadow and one more is with black eye shadow. totally found my newfound love; purple eye shadow. :) was bored. so excuse the randomness.






















shut the fuck up, you lastseasonzebraeverythingstupidwhore bitch.


was and still am bummed out when this certain person told me what's happening between me, this other certain person i called, erm, x and a loser from the other world. there is a huge gap that i, yes, me, carmen chan kar mun made it exist between me and that loser from the other world. no, i don't live to hate, but when it comes to this, it comes naturally. so shuttap.

got the shocked of my life. it is like, totally fucked up. the first thing i did instead of running to x, pulling the hair fuck out of the fucking head and just basically, hurting x was, well, it was really stupid because i hurt myself instead of x, i punched the wall like, what? 4 times? yes, obviously it hurt. don't ask stupid questions, but apparently, i don't care. maybe i do and the most surprising part was, i was an inch to tear. hmmm. fuck that shit.

am just so bummed out because i did things for x and x just, just turned on me. machibai. I WILL SEE HOW U FEEL WHEN I GET ITCHYWITCHY WITH THAT BITCH.

go fuck yourself.

p.s. why do all bad things always happen to me? last week, i had a bigggg missunderstood with gaiusbooo. now, this shit? i hope it is a missunderstanding too. you. yes, you with the black wings, angel of bad lucks. please go away. i am so sick of being hurt for something is not true.

Apparently, I was wrong. Very, very wrong. Those pictures will never, ever be the same. ♥

didn't go to school today again. am looking forward to receive another warning letter. :) not. sigh. got ready for lunch in uncle peter's. put on the baby milo i bought yesterday and a pair of blue shorts in a pair of leopard skin slippers i bought yesterday.


leopard skin slippers. :D


baby milo tee. :)

lunch was okay. was drowning in boredom as parents with their usual daily conversation with uncle peter and aunt cindy. bernard, aunt cindy, mom and i left for kajang to buy bernard's birthday cake. we actually broke the usual cake tradition; from secret recipe to erm, a certain shop in kajang. bought a variety of buns too. sent aunt cindy home.

saw kecik's car on the way to my place. gaiusbooo was, erm, angry because he was waiting for 3o minutes plus. it was bloody annoying he was just mumbling and mumbling and mumbling. haha. went back home.





















i ran upstairs to redo my make ups since mom was having this fear, i would be a slowpoke and all. right. x eyes rolling. x i put on mom's blue dress and the black beads( trying to bring back the trend, yall. ;) haha. ), carrying black and white converse handbag in a pair of black wedges. so i had this princesswalkingdownthestairsandeveryonewouldbelookingatme vib as i was walking down the stairs. gaiusbooo was, well, satisfied. :D haha. well, except that the black wedges didn't suit the blue dress. so i put on a pair of black office high heels instead. total loveee. :)











gaiusbooo, family and i left for the ship for bernard's birthday dinner.

dad.: why do you always have to take pictures?
me.: because i love to take pictures?
mom.: aiyo. just let her be.

dudes. they will never, ever understand the definition of camposing. ;P


the birthday boy. :D






















yumehhh. :D

we are done with dinner. we were back at our place since it was too early to cut the cake in the restaurant.









gaiusbooo and i were just basically hanging out in the living room. he was begging for me to NOT to change into my usual home outfit, a jersey and a pair of boxers, but failed miserably. ;P the clock hit 11 p. m. we left for the restaurant. yes, i was out in my usual home outfit. as usual.




HAHAHA. me and dad's tummy. :)




dad was being such a pest, SHOUTING AT ME FOR LETTING GO OF MY HAIR( because i have a big head. damnit. ) IN FRONT OF EVERYONE. i was an inch to shout the fuck out at him back.










HAHAHA. yes, it was pretty much censored in a way. ;P


















gaiusbooo's madonna's teeth. gap. :D








i can't believe this is the first picture of me and bernard tonight. i mean. he is my campose partner in crime. well, in this family. haha.


yes, i know my head is big. dad's gene. shuttap.



we were back at our place. dad picked gaiusbooo.