08 July 2007 Sunday, July 08, 2007

Solving problems is something I suck at.

Seriously, have you ever had a huge urge to shoot yourself in the head for uncountabletothepowerofuncountable times? It sucks when that happens. No matter how hard I try to solve my problems, nothing works. Unfunctioning solver machine, I say.

I used to get over things easily. Well, I always give myself an excuse to forget and forgive. When Bernard and I were small, we used to steal Andrew`s money for charity because he was mean to us. Now, Andrew owes me money, but I didn`t ask him for it because of what I did to him when I was small, but now, I realised excuses are lies. And I can`t use them to forget and forgive because they are not up to the standard where I can accept myself and the others. It is not that my expectations are high, but whose doesn`t?