Head Over Heels, Heart Before Head.

14 September 2008 Sunday, September 14, 2008

mahalo.

just took off facial mask. was suffering from a numb face for the past 2o minutes. am suffering from having some unwanted visitors on forehead, cheeks and upper lips which gaiusbooo called it " the moustache pimple ". very funnehhh. x rolling eyes. x this is one of the reasons why i hate being on pms. teenage hormones. sigh. despite the temporary miserable pimplespoppingeverywhere, just had my happyhappyjoyjoy days. :) felt bad for thinking about gaiusbooo that way. no, he deserved every single ugley thoughts for making my life a living blackhole hell for the past five days. haha. anyways, the updatesss. :)

13th september 2oo8.

woke up to gaiusbooo's call, asking me to open the gate for him. was ecstatic and nervous at the same time. thought of kicking him in the front, but can't help it, but to fall in love again. made him cook me a bowl of maggi while i took my shower as i had tuition one hour later. mr. shanker came earlier than i expected. he was being such a sweetheart, letting me to eat my gaiusbooomadewithloves girls and bowl of maggi while he was cleaning the table. haha. mojo jojo, suzanne and christine came. so the three hour long class started. was proud of myself when i was arguing with mr. shanker about an account statement because i was correct. :) the kurianmr. shanker went back. was happy to, after three fucking long hour, be in gaiusbooo's arms. spent a few hours in my place before heading to leisure mall for lunch. surprisingly, the cab operator was, erm, polite. O.O dressed in bernard's white skeleton tee which i love so muchhh and a pair of red pants, carrying black and white converse handbag in a pair of soldier slippers. oh, and i wore contact lens too. :)

headed to kenny's roger as was lusting for it that day. thought of going to this newfound favourite vegetarian restaurant, but fast food over healthy food. maybe next time.

haha.

was still hungry and i don't know why. so had a lok lok session as i was lusting for it too. haha. i loveydovey the lok lok hotdog. went back home as we had nothing to do. no money for fuck's sake. sigh.

my big ass pimple.

gaiusbooo and bernard were being such darlings, offered me a session of manicure and pedicure. :) even though it was, erm, not that pretteh, but was thankful to have them hotstuffs to do something not most of the dudes do. :)

decided to walk benji. and precious.

gaius booo and i rested in my place for a while. was planning to have dinner at the restaurant, but adeline messaged, asking me whether i want to follow her and aunt nancy to jusco or not. accepted the request since we had nothing to do. adeline and aunt nancy picked us up and we left for jusco.

my rockstar. <3

accompanied adeline buying her grocery things for her new apartment. am sad that she is moving to cyber jaya. at least if she is still in sunway, i could take a lrt to there, but cyberjaya? sigh. but happy for her though, since she looked content and all. on the way to the car, gaiusbooo lost his rm 6o earing. was irritated because it is rm 6o for god's sake. decided to move on. :D sigh.

had dinner in the restaurant. gaiusbooo was asking me whether he could follow brothers and cousins for dota or not. i was being such a goodygoodygoodgood girlfriend, gave him the green light. ;P yes, bitches, i love him to the bits. :)

went back. took shower and everything. adeline came for a sleepover. we were watching " click ",( that was my 3rd time in this week. " click " is getting overrated and i am still loving it. :) ) slept off before i could finish the movie.

woke up to gaiusbooo's moves. he offered to cook a bowl of maggi, again. totally pleased with his request. can never, ever say no to food. ;P after that, we were just, hanging out. was angry when i got to know it was fucking 5 a. m. because we had to get ready for church in three hours time and gaiusbooo hadn't slept since he came back from cyber cafe.( which reminds me, i still haven't ask him what time he came back. ) in the end, decided to not go for church since gaiusbooo was tired and all. heh. excuses.

14th september 2oo8.

woke up at 8.3o a. m.. no alarm, no nothing. i just, you know, woke up. so was trying to wake gaiusbooo up, but failed miserably. so just continue my beauty sleep. :)

woke up to tummyache. was fucked up because for the past two days, have been tummyaching. endured the pain for 3o minutes. watched " deseparate housewives ", my favourite. :) it was on a marathon. :D 24 hours, if i am not mistaken. was too lazy to drag my ass to cook something for my gastric juice. even though gaiusbooo was sleeping, totally sucessfully made him cook for me. ;) " baby, :(, baby, :(, i, tummyache. cook, cook, something. :( " with a pair of gooogooogaga eyes. suckerrr. ;P haha. basically spent the whole evening in the sofa, hugging gaiusbooo while watching my favourite television show. ahhh. the joy. :) and the sky was crying. :( totally ruined my perfect day. so took shower.

went to the restaurant to celebrate, erm, tanglung festival? all i noe is there was chinese fancy food, abalones. :D and of course, aunt fournames cooked the delicious, erm, tong yuen? it was yummm. better than abalones, if you ask me. :) adeline sent gaiusbooo and i home.

daddy, mommy and kogulan picked gaiusbooo up.

i totally felt guilty for thinking about him that way. i know he loves me. ;P
she should stop being such a drama queen's for god sake.
i wonder where he was.
oh, my, moses. gold diggersss. >:(
i guess i will never let go of this, this fucked up past. i am sorry because i am such an ass, remembering every single fucked up things, breaking the promise that we would not live in the past, but it just grew in me. yes, i know it is not his fault, but i told him, the decision he made still gets to me. he can't blame me, he can just blame his, well, he knows who. i asked him what him will do if this fucked up thing happens to him. yes, he knows the answer. so he should know how i feel. i just can't forgive. maybe time will heal, but who knows?
i hope they are not using him. i hope they really like him.
if i am sleeping or half way going to sleep, please fuck off.
eva longoria is so fucking fine. ;) and bree too. :D
wooow. she actually made it. i am proud of her. :') i hope she would be fine in this industry. :)
i hope he is for real. if not, i am going to break his small penis for breaking her heart. because i love her like that, yo. ;)
to think about it, he was being such a sweetheart, doing everything that i should be doing. haha.

You know I am such a fool for you. ♥

Yours truly.

I am Carmen and cool to meet you, you good looking motherfucker. :D Okay. Let's get to business. I am sorry to say this, but I am self center which explains why most of the pictures in this blog are me, myself and I. :D Oh, and I love to do silly faces. :)

Forever Loves.